again.. im on here moaning about men..

im not really sure where else to turn, so i thought i'd just write it down .. maybe calm myself down.

well me and my boyfriend have been together for over 7 months now.. and only just recently stayed together.. i went to his house and stayed for 11 days... i felt comfortable with him.. like i could be there for a lot longer..

its not like my relationship with my mum where i SOMETIMES tell her things and usually actually dont... but with him.. for some reason i always feel that i can tell him everything..

when i stayed at his house.. of course, we were safe in the bedroom department... but like a few girls in the world who arent too sure with themselves.. need a lil encouragement and a lot of nice advice.. im one of those girls who get scared of the baby threat..

i have always heard the girl talk of "if you EVER think you could be pregnant.. then dont consult the boyfriend... it is your choice."

but of course i did.. and i finally realised why girls say that... and i dont actually know where my relationship still lies...

but i dont know why... call me stupid ... but he just seemed to pressure me.. its a hard time for both of us obviously.. neither of us are ready for it..

but he told me that if i was pregnant... it would be him or the baby.

if i was. and i kept it... i would probably never see him again.

i just wanted a lil support.. i dont know if that was being unreasonable...

i know he doesnt want a baby.. i dont either...

i understand the christian saying that it isnt the babies fault.. so why punish it..

but if you're not ready.. then you're not ready.

i dont wanna pressure him in to anything he dont wanna do.. but i dont wanna be pressured either!

why cant men get that?? xx